That's my bad...(^^;)

Hi everyone, how are you going?

I am doing.. well.. so-so.

In yesterday's blog I mentioned that I had a backache but it has become a bit worse since then(^^;) That's probably because I went for a walk yesterday morning and I also had to squat many times at work.

The reason why I got this backache is that I had too much exercise two days ago. I have been on a diet since this Sunday. What I do to lose weight is to do some walking ( with Ambi), step exercise, muscle toning with light weights and pilates. I don't do all the exercises everyday, of course.

Among these exercises , the ones I really find helpful are walking& stepping and pilates.

when you want to lose weight and tone up your body, you gotta do some moderate aerobic exercise such as walking, swimming, and biking etc and strength training for example, weight training, sit-ups, push-ups etc. So walking and stepping are really good for burning my fat and pilates is good for tone up and sculpt my body. It's also good for my mental health too. I really like pilates because it really works very well! No wonder Hollywood celebrities are going crazy about it. I did pilates 3 days in a row ( but not yesterday due to my backache) and now I can definitely tell the difference around my belly!! It is really amazing and a big wow to me!!

When you go on a diet, which would you care more, about your weight loss or size??

Well I care more about size, I mean how I look rather than how much I weigh. The reason is very simple; nobody can tell how much you weight by the look!! I DO weight myself on a regular basis but I am more focusing on waist size. After all if you just drink some water, that makes you heavier, doesn't it? I don't want to get bothered by it.

Well back to the reason why I got this backache, I did exercise for more than one and half hours two days ago! It's not that I did that long non-stop, I did 3 kinds of exercises for 30 minutes each separately. I had never done those kind of things before, so obviously I got carried away.

And I have my reservations about my technique of pilates. I have been doing pilates on and off for more than 4 years. I bought a pilates book with DVD and learned the exercises from them. But now I feel that as time has gone by, I have forgotten the very important basic part and have been doing in my own way, which might have caused my back problem(^^;) Well I gotta shape up and get back to the book and DVD and learn the technique once again. Pilates was created in order to heal injured soldiers by some doctor and it is supposed to be good for people who have got a backache not causing a backache!

Anyway I gotta rest for a while until the backache goes. I really hope it goes very soon.

The sky is pretty dark now.

Hi everyone, how are you going?

I have a bit of a backache but it's nothing serious.

This week is the third week of Gori's TAFE course and he left for Brisbane on Sunday.

I am getting used to being alone without him, thanks to our lovely pets, Costa, Ambi and six chooks.

It was bucketing down outside just a few minutes ago but now it's let up.

I thought we were going to have a storm this afternoon because it was pretty hot and muggy today. I've been in Australia for about a year and half now and I think I am getting a better guesser about predicting whether or not a storm will come.

Now the sky is still looking ominous, I hope we don't get a serious storm. You know why?

That's because it affects the TV signals, especially the sound. And of course it could cause a blackout as well.  We've got some torch, candles at hand just to be on the safe side, but I don't want to spend a night alone in the dark, you know. 

Well I think I should write English diary more often in order to improve my English.

Writing is a good way of sorting out the grammar things and vocab in the head, I think.

what a nice feeling!

Hello everyone, how are you going?

I am doing pretty well(^^)

My new roster has been working very well for me.

All the pressure  has gone and now my sleeping condition has improved a lot.

It's not that I can sleep like before I started to work, but I know that I did sleep and that's a nice feeling.  So I feel more energetic and stronger, which makes me feel happy and motivated to work and do other stuff such as studying English, exercising and blogging, etc. Gori is still away from home but I am feeling very stable  and confident. You know the last time Gori went down to Brisbane to take the course for a week, I was very vulnerable and I had a hard time dealing with it but now I am not like that at all. I feel very very happy with me!

These kind of things are very normal for healthy people ( I am not telling you that I am not healthy) but for me after I've experienced panic disorder and other health problems, starting working and keeping it up is a really big thing.  When I got the first insomnia, honestly I felt devastated because I thought I might end up quitting the job. That could be a traumatic setback next time I wanted to get a job.  I really didn't want to quit the job easily so I was pretty worried. But now things are picking up. I am sooooo relieved, you know.

twist and turn

Hi everyone, how are you going?

I am doing alright. It's been quite a while since I made the last entry of my blog.

I haven't mentioned this yet in this blog but now I've got a part-time job, which

 is working at a sushi bar in a shopping centre in town!  

I started working in the last week of January. In the beginning I was working 4 days a week, ７-8.5 hours  a day.  I thought I would be OK with this work schedule but after a week I found myself struggling with it.  You know, I hadn't worked almost 2 years, so at first I thought that my body was just not used to the new routine. But things get a bit different when you suffer from insomnia, don't they? Yes,  you are right, I have been struggling with sleeping at night. It was really hard in the first three weeks. I couldn't get to sleep at all especially when it was the night before working day. I must have been feeling some strong pressure or something about the work. Because my roster was pretty tricky, which had 8:30-17:00(Monday), 6:30-14:30(Tuesday), 13:00-8:30(Thursday) and 8:30-15:30(Saturday) and on top of that, my roster changed every week so it was no wonder that I had difficulty in adjusting myself to this new way of living. I thought I would be fine but obviously I was kidding myself.

I wanted to start working mostly because I wanted to earn money. I had been using my savings and as you can guess it had become less and less. So I really needed to make money. And also there was another reason for it, which was that Gori was going to attend a course in Brisbane to become a gas-fitter and the course was to start on the 16th of February. The course is on every other week for 8 months. So actual school time is 4 weeks. This week is the second week of school time and Gori went down to Brisbane on Sunday and coming back on Saturday. 

Anyway I wanted to start working because I thought I would be very bored doing nothing without Gori for a week.  You know A week alone is a bit too long, we've got our lovely pets but still .. you know.. Before I start working I thought I would get used to the job before Gori's school started but it didn't turn out like that. I have to admit that there was one time when I regretted my decision because I struggled .. really struggled without him. I felt very fragile so I even had to cheer myself up in mind in order to keep myself together and  get through it. 

Now things are much better. I talked the owner of sushi bar, who is Japanese and a very thoughtful man and he was kind enough to arrange my roster and  give more suitable one to me. Now I work three days a week, 5-6 hours a day, with no very early shift. It's been like this for two weeks and I feel much better and relaxed. 

Before I was like.. pushed too hard by job and sweated a lot

but now I am confident that I can handle it and I even enjoy it.